That day replays in a constant loop,
the one day that remains unforgotten
forever stays ingrained within
the essence of who I am.
I remember holding her for the last time,
the last words said face to face.
Walking down those metal stairs,
Watching her, I backed my car out.
That last look on her face,
the afternoon sun reflected in her eyes.
Fought back the tears
driving towards what I used to call home.
Inside I knew.
The way she acted that day gave her away,
yet still i had hope.
Hours pass,
thinking of her.
Went to the store it was cold out.
my phone rang, it was her.
A fleeting moment of happiness
followed by the dread of following
words. We need to talk.
My chest tightens, hard to breathe
the tears fall, as I stand in the
electronics aisle.
Asking why, hear her crying.
In that moment lost part of
myself.
The days go by,
weeks into months.
Still the pain resides, friends
are there, help me out.
still alone when I go to sleep.
So here I sit a broken person,
so many questions. No answers.
Others tell me, it will be ok.
you'll find someone better.
None of that matters,
I dont want anyone but her.
But it takes two to love. I
cant make her feel what isnt,
cant make her love me enough.
Thats what hurts the most, I
came so close.
Thought this time things are different
life showed me differently.
So I do what I can, I take whats left
the memories we had.
The time we spent, and try to move on.
Block out my thoughts,
try not to feel.
Pretend to be happy.
