awake

I Lie awake, unable to sleep for what seems like forever.
Haunted by past memories, of things that used to be.
Like phantoms they dance within my mind reminding me of what
it once felt like to be alive.
I close my eyes and wish for peace. But no peace comes.
Her face is all I see. Her voice is all I hear.
Its like the harder I try to forget the more the echos repeat.
My mind is fuzzy my heart heavy. I wonder how much longer.
The crushing feeling in my chest a constant visitor, followed
by a choking feeling. My eyes burn.
I cry out to god. I cry out to anyone, take this away.
Make me forget.
I lay back down and close my eyes.
Watch it all go black, knowing that
tomorrow will be the same.
Ive lost sight of who I was confused hurt and scared and still I continue.
Force it all to the darkest corners of my mind to forget. pretend im ok.
Awake laying in darkness, Awake haunted by my past.
I Wish for sleep, try to have hope, because thats all I have left.
Hope that one day ill be able to find my path.