Day 16- close to non existence

My lungs start to burn as the cold air continues to enter and exit rapidly. Ever part of my body telling me to slow down and to stop, but I cant. I shouldn't have stayed out so long I was stupid. I must keep running, that's all that I can do. I ignore the burning in my chest and focus on willing my tired legs to keep pumping faster, I tell myself. My feet hit the wet pavement as I keep a steady pace, one foot in front of the other. Willing my body to continue on when there is little left. I come around the corner I am almost there. Almost to safety, almost to a place where I can rest, until tomorrow night. I keep running I cant give in now I can see the sun start to rise above the horizon. I can start to feel the heat upon my skin, it burns deeper than the pain that was in my lungs. Im too late, and yet I keep running in the hopes that maybe just maybe by some miracle ill make it. The sun continues to rise, im only two hundred and fifty feet away from the enveloping darkness of the house. Two hundred and fifty feet between life and death. My skin begins to burn and pain unlike any I have ever felt in my life assails my body. Tears begin to run down my cheeks as my flesh begins to smoke in the early morning dawn. One hundred more feet no time left, part of me just wants to give in right there. Let the sun take me,let it turn me to ash to be spread by the wind never to be seen again. Yet I still run,I hit the door and collapse as I am slowly being burnt away by the morning light. Broken and smoking lying on the front step I drag myself through the door and into the dark house. I close the door and lye in the darkness thankful for being alive. Actually not alive thankful for existing, because technically ive been dead for years. That was too close,I almost didn't make it, I was sloppy and stupid and yet I am still here. I make my way downstairs to my room to rest let my wounds heal themselves. Tonight I shall awake and the pain will be gone. However I wont forget how close I was to ending everything that I was. I wont make the same mistake twice that I am sure of. I had been close to non existence and I didn't like it one bit.