so yeah...

Its been two weeks now.... It seems like its all been in slow motion that things just slowly slipped through my fingers before I was able to grasp them again. Its been a hard two weeks, probably some of the hardest weeks in my life. However with all the pain and confusion and anger, ive realized two things..

1. I have a great group of people who care about me, Im lucky. I have tyler and cali who are always there for me no matter what, They are family to me. Yannick is the one guy that might be cooler than me I say might but in reality he probably is. Adam and riley are my smart ass friends give me alot of crap but I wouldnt have it any other way besides I give them crap too! I also have friends who i have never met before in person. Kiri, is always there giving me a hard time but when it comes down to it she always listens shes like a big sister to me! Justin is one of the most amazing people I have ever got the chance to meet, hes younger than me but he has a wisdom that blows me away, hes my broham and hed walk through hell with me if he had too. Then theres jenna, at first I didnt know her that well I just knew her as justins girlfriend but shes an awesome listener and has been through alot of things, shes knows what im feeling and is also really great at giving me advice. Sadi is my metal mentor and when it comes to being kick ass she knows how to do it! Angela is the one that always tells me like it is she calls me on my bulshit which is pretty helpful! There are others too of course but Id be writing all night. Basically I wanna say thanks to anyone who has just been there for me through this and who I know will still be there whatever comes.

2. That as shitty as things are they could be worse. Im tired of letting my emotions control my life so from now on that's a no go..I'm just gonna live and try to be content with what I have and who I am. Its that simple, sure there will still be pain there and there will still be days where I will fall apart, but im not gonna let it break me.

What Im getting at is that I realized that I was spending to much time and energy just focusing on negative shit. So here is to tomorrow and whatever it brings. Heres to robots unicorns ninjas and pirates may they all fight each other in a battle royal where we all can watch and partake in the greatness!